Bollocks!!

Well...  I have a job!! I had an interview yesterday and was hired today at a new pub opening up in Pickering. Bollocks pub and kitchen. It's a 20 min drive away... could be more convenient, but I can't afford to be picky. I'm actually really excited to start working there.  The owners seem really nice and I'm pretty sure they'll even give me Sundays off.  I just can't wait to be making money again. I miss having a wallet full of cash from waitressing :)

Things are going alright here. Leah is great. We get along great! She calls me Sa. Close enough :) I'm starting to get to know the other people in my branch.  The girls are harder to get to know than the boys. The boys are much friendlier and curious. Most of them seem very young though. But hey, I'll be friends with anybody!

I still miss Lethbridge with all my heart. At my job interview, they asked me what I liked best about my last job and I almost teared up. I miss my co-workers. They were my family, and I love them.  I miss my soulmate Taneil.  She is one of THE most beautiful people, inside and out, that I have ever had the pleasure of knowing. I miss my Kelly, Lauren, Cody, Jared, Lindsay, Tyrell, etc.  I am blessed to have had them all in my life. I already can't wait to go back and visit.

I tried to go to the temple this past week. Drove an hour only to find out it was closed. And the drive back was ridiculous... stupid rush hour. However, even just being there helped. I sat outside and stared at it for about a half an hour. I felt the love of my Heavenly Father. He knows I'm struggling. He knows it hurts. He also knows, however, that I'll be ok and that the best of life is still to come... and he made sure I knew that. I'm so grateful.  It doesn't take away the pain of missing some very important people, but that's ok. It's normal to miss people you LOVE LOVE LOVE :)

Onnnnntario.

So... I'm here. I'm back in Ontario, living in Whitby with my sister Faith. So far so good I suppose! My niece Leah and I have become fast friends. She seems to really enjoy my company. I come down the stairs and she smiles and says "Hi, guy!" Although she tends to call everyone guy... so I'm not really sure what it means. I still think it's cute :) I went out the other day and she cried when I left! She's definitely helped me make the adjustment.

I plan to start applying for jobs on Monday. I'm just looking for a part time waitressing job for now. I'll be taking the culinary program at Durham college in the fall, and I'm helping Faith out with Leah instead of paying rent, so I really only need 20-25 hours a week. It's nice being around family, and I'm looking forward to making new friends at work/church.... but my heart hurts being away from my loved ones in Lethbridge. The only pro is that I expected it to be this hard, so it hasn't really come as a surprise. But it's painful. I'm definitely hurting. Some days are better than others, but I definitely spend at least 90% of my days thinking about them. I'm sure I'll never stop thinking about them, and whatever job I may find will never compare to the job I had at Top Pizza, but I think that's ok. Lethbridge will always have a special place in my heart. I know I had to be there to meet certain people, and learn certain lessons. I guess I only hope that the hurt goes away soon... I do plan to visit in August. That helps me out when I start to get too sad :)

Learning learning learning.

Less than 3 weeks left.... YIKES! I can't believe the day is actually coming. I'm actually moving back to Ontario on March 11th. I am very excited to be closer to my family and to be around my niece all the time, plus to be there for the birth of the second! (sex to be determined.. tomorrow hopefully!)

I am, however, terrified to leave here. I have made many close friends and have learned much about myself while here, that Lethbridge will always hold a special place in my heart. I do plan on visiting as frequently as my wallet will allow me :)

I got accepted into the culinary program at Durham college. It's something I've always wanted to do and I'm glad I finally decided to do it. No more studying things because it might be the responsible thing to do. I'm here to be happy, and cooking makes me happy :)

Let's see... too serious... how about... OOH! PLEASE check out "Craig" on youtube. He vanswers all the questions that you might have! Hahah.. here is an example.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bQeRhFg4qP4

Also..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FKNyU06O2u0

I hope you love him as much as I do.

I've got your nose!

Taneil Wilson is fabulous. Just sayin'.

Well the holidays came and went. I had a delightful Christmas, and was blessed to have 2 whole weeks off work to go home and be with my family. My niece is too adorable for her own good. I am addicted to her. It was so much fun to be able to spend so much time with her and get to know her. My highlight was when the room was full of people she didn't know very well. She was starting to get overwhelmed, looked around the room, saw me and lit up! Ran right over to me with a big smile on her face and said "Hi!" I love that girl. I can't wait to have another niece/nephew to play with next summer :) I guess it was nice to see my other family members as well haha. Sisters are a fantastic invention. It was another Christmas without Daniel, but he was in Alberta with his wife's family, which I totally understand. They don't get to see her family very often.

I didn't do much for new years... I rarely do. It's kind of just another day to me. I did spend some time with Kelly and Lauren, and they did drag me to a dance... which was lame as usual. But at least I wasn't alone which was nice. Definitely reminded me that I'm definitely done with the YSA scene here in Lethbridge.. which brings me to my next point.

I'm moving back to Ontario. Probably on March 3rd. Maybe a week later after all the other waitresses get back from their holidays. I'm very excited to be in Ontario. I'm excited to be closer to my family, to see what the change has in store for me. However I am absolutely 100% TERRIFIED to not be here any more. This move might be one of the hardest things I will ever have to do. There are a handful of specific people here that have made significant impacts on my life and it is going to be ridiculously difficult not to see these people on a regular basis. I don't let go very easily. I hate change. I'm already planning on when I can come back to visit. And who knows.... I might get to Ontario and hate it and wish I were back in Lethbridge. If that happens, who's to say I can't come back? But I feel like this is something I need to do/try for at least a few months. I'll live with Faith and Rainer for awhile. I'll get to play with Leah ALL the time, and be there when the new baby comes :) It's going to be a good experience for me. But like I said... I've never been this scared before. I know it's gonna hurt like hell for awhile. It already does.

Last week at church, a girl got up to bear her testimony and talked about a time when she lost her job, and didn't see how any good could from from it. Well lo and behold, she found a better job and has had better experiences because of it. She basically went on to say how hard times strengthen us for the future. I need to go through this right now in order to be prepared. Otherwise, the future would probably kill me!! I guess this could mean that the worst is still to come, but at least it also means that this is all for a reason. I just have to make it through.

Sleep time.

P.S. Taneil Wilson is still fabulous. Just sayin'.