Changes

This past week sucked. Therefore, I have decided to make the following changes to ensure it never happens again:

1. Drink a LOT less caffeine. I took a break from it completely for a few days to see if there would be any physical consequences, and there weren't really. So I am allowing myself to have a diet coke every so often. I experimented with energy drinks lately and I am cutting those back out of my life. I kept away from them for a reason.

2. a) Surround myself with good, uplifting people. I made the mistake of trying to be friends with some of the people I work with, and it blew up in my face. There is no need for that. It all started with what I thought was an innocent staff party... on a sunday... with drinking... I justified it because I wasn't drinking and staff parties are so rare that I didn't want to miss out, even though it was on a Sunday. That was a mistake. Drama ensued. The people I work with are dragging me down and making me into a person I'm not proud of. I wanted to help them become better people, and instead they are making me a worse one. Friday night I went out to Humpty's (Denny's ugly step child) for breakfast with some great people. I laughed like I hadn't laughed in awhile. It was great. These same people are the ones who comforted me out of a nervous emotional breakdown tonight. Linda calmed me down, and Braden gave me a beautiful blessing.

b) In order to help with a), I am going to try to get my schedule changed so that I'm not working until 1am every Saturday night so that I can actually be around these great people more often. Also, I will a LOT less temped to skip church the next morning due to working too hard and too late the night before.

3. Study the scriptures more/every day. I have been slacking in this department. Not cool.

4. Watch my language. The people I work with do not watch theirs. This spreads like a disease and I have caught myself saying things I have never/rarely said before in my life. Also not cool.

5. Laugh everyday. I used to be really good at this. I don't remember TONS about being little, but I do remember I was happy and I had a good childhood. I remember laughing a lot with my siblings. I want to laugh more. It feels SO GOOD when I do.

6. Take the pursuing of my second degree more seriously. It is not just a hobby, even though I have been treating it as such. I got fairly good grades, but I could've done better. I'm going to look into taking a co-op this summer. This would give me some GREAT experience, help me build some useful skills, and give me an excuse to quit my current job.

7. Be happy / Try my HARDEST not to compare my life to others.

Wish me luck.