I've got your nose!

Taneil Wilson is fabulous. Just sayin'.

Well the holidays came and went. I had a delightful Christmas, and was blessed to have 2 whole weeks off work to go home and be with my family. My niece is too adorable for her own good. I am addicted to her. It was so much fun to be able to spend so much time with her and get to know her. My highlight was when the room was full of people she didn't know very well. She was starting to get overwhelmed, looked around the room, saw me and lit up! Ran right over to me with a big smile on her face and said "Hi!" I love that girl. I can't wait to have another niece/nephew to play with next summer :) I guess it was nice to see my other family members as well haha. Sisters are a fantastic invention. It was another Christmas without Daniel, but he was in Alberta with his wife's family, which I totally understand. They don't get to see her family very often.

I didn't do much for new years... I rarely do. It's kind of just another day to me. I did spend some time with Kelly and Lauren, and they did drag me to a dance... which was lame as usual. But at least I wasn't alone which was nice. Definitely reminded me that I'm definitely done with the YSA scene here in Lethbridge.. which brings me to my next point.

I'm moving back to Ontario. Probably on March 3rd. Maybe a week later after all the other waitresses get back from their holidays. I'm very excited to be in Ontario. I'm excited to be closer to my family, to see what the change has in store for me. However I am absolutely 100% TERRIFIED to not be here any more. This move might be one of the hardest things I will ever have to do. There are a handful of specific people here that have made significant impacts on my life and it is going to be ridiculously difficult not to see these people on a regular basis. I don't let go very easily. I hate change. I'm already planning on when I can come back to visit. And who knows.... I might get to Ontario and hate it and wish I were back in Lethbridge. If that happens, who's to say I can't come back? But I feel like this is something I need to do/try for at least a few months. I'll live with Faith and Rainer for awhile. I'll get to play with Leah ALL the time, and be there when the new baby comes :) It's going to be a good experience for me. But like I said... I've never been this scared before. I know it's gonna hurt like hell for awhile. It already does.

Last week at church, a girl got up to bear her testimony and talked about a time when she lost her job, and didn't see how any good could from from it. Well lo and behold, she found a better job and has had better experiences because of it. She basically went on to say how hard times strengthen us for the future. I need to go through this right now in order to be prepared. Otherwise, the future would probably kill me!! I guess this could mean that the worst is still to come, but at least it also means that this is all for a reason. I just have to make it through.

Sleep time.

P.S. Taneil Wilson is still fabulous. Just sayin'.

Oh Adventures

Last couple months have been.... different. October had a couple highlights though. I just love October. I love the way it smells, looks, feels. Went to the corn maze for the first time this year. It was pretty fun once we ditched the super chatty random girls who decided to follow us around. Halloween was fun. I went over to Christian's for scary movies and trick or treaters.... even though only 3 kids showed up :( It was still a fun chill night.

November has been a little difficult emotionally. Lots of changes, lots of decisions to be made, and none of it very much fun... but I'm coping. I played with the silver band on remembrance day. I loved that. I forgot how much I loved playing the trombone in concerts. I almost cried after the afternoon show, I was so happy.

Last night I went to Calgary with Taneil to see "STOMP". I love that show. This is the third time I've seen it live and it's entertaining every time. We picked a bad day to be travelling though, as there was hurricane force winds on the highway. We saw a couple semis tipped over. Plus, back in Lethbridge, grass fires were starting and the 130km/hr winds were not helping the situation. My neighbourhood was on evacuation notice. My apartment building still smells like campfire. Luckily the wind died down and they got the fires under control and as far as I know, no homes were destroyed.

That experience taught me something very important. Something that I should've known already, but had forgotten during the course of the last couple months. People care about me. I got concerned texts/messages from many different people asking if I was ok, making sure I had places to go if I was evacuated, begging me not to attempt driving home in the wind. It didn't really hit me until this morning, but I woke up feeling very protected, loved, and cared for. I'm pretty sure I'm moving back to Ontario in February, but when I do, I will be leaving behind many great and amazing people who have permanently changed me for the better.

I am not the same person I was two and a half years ago. Not at all.