'Tis the season!

It's been a pretty fabulous last few months. Not sure why exactly, I've just been fairly happy which is always a good thing. Halloween was pretty fun. My costume was pretty boring, but I wanted to be able to dress up at work so I had to pick something pretty simple..


As you can see, my roommates (Linda a.k.a. Lady Gaga and Erin a.k.a. zombie?) put much more effort into their costumes. I was a cat. Meow. We all went to the ward Halloween Dance which was actually pretty great compared to previous dances... Plus I ran into my cousin Katherine who was down from Calgary with a few of her friends! It was nice to see her!

After Halloween came preference. This was my first preference I've actually been to! I was quite stressed about it actually. I had heard stories about girls having to ask multiple people until they find someone who hadn't been asked so I decided to be on the ball and snag my date a little early. It worked. He said yes. This is me and Braeden! (p.s. I dyed my hair...)


I think the best part of preference was the group I went with. There was a group of ten of us. We made dinner for the boys, and then wandered around a park downtown which was decorated with christmas lights and they were showing christmas movies outside and had free hot chocolate. It was quite lovely. It was at the park where I found the true love of my life....




That soldier swept me off my feet... but I had already promised Braeden a fabulous evening so I had to leave him at that park. The dance was quite spectacular all thanks to the musical stylings of DJ Lindy.. She did a fantastic job!

Work is going well. I got a raise! My boss pretty much loves me.. He gave me a week off for Christmas and gave me the extra shifts I asked for. I enjoy working there most of the time. (Shout out to my bestie/homie Matt!)

The semester is coming to and end! I'm doing fairly well. I think I'll do better once I start taking the marketing classes that actually interest me. Let's just say I never plan to be an accountant OR a statistician... barf.

SO excited to go home for Christmas :D I've always known that I loved Christmas, but I've come to realize how much I truly truly TRULY love Christmas and everything about it!! I'm very traditional and I love how Christmas is full of traditions! I can't wait to be at home for a week and stay in my pj's the whole time being a kid again with my siblings, eating nothing but homemade "nuts n' bolts" and caramel corn... with a turkey dinner thrown in there for good measure!

Life is Good!

It's been awhile... I think that's why it's been awhile.

Lethbridge has been good to me lately! I decided to go back to school at the University of Lethbridge and study Marketing. I'm actually *really* enjoying it! Accounting is pretty boring, but at least I think I'm getting it and I should do well.

I'm still working while I'm in school. My boss is super supportive of school and trying to build a better future so he's been working around my schedule. I'm actually enjoying the staff I work with also. They're all easy to work with and I'm getting along with them much better lately. The entire kitchen staff says I'm their favourite waitress BY FAR.. which of course makes me smile :)

There are lots of new people in the ward this fall which has been fun. There's a house of boys that lives just around the corner .. about a 3 minute walk away. It's been fun having them close by. Gives me something to do if I get too bored! One of them happened to be selling a queen size mattress set just in time for my air mattress bed to get a hole in it! It was perfect timing really. So now I have my very own big girl bed!

Linda and I went on a toilet adventure a few weeks ago! The toilet downstairs had been very touchy lately. It was constantly squealing and clogging every other day. So Linda and I set out to purchase a new toilet! We had no idea what we were doing, but we pretended that we did! Luckily our friend Braeden is a plumber so he told us what we needed to buy. He installed it for us. We have a new passion for toilets now! We notice other people's toilets and what brands they are! Does that make us losers? Perhaps... :)

I guess this update wasn't as long as I thought it'd be. I guess it could be more detailed, but that's that! Lethbridge is a great place for me right now!

"Meet me at Sunburst!"

So it's been awhile.... here's my update.

I didn't get my big-girl job... :(

I had an interview here in Lethbridge that was pretty useless. They didn't really ask any useful questions, but they scheduled an interview for me in Calgary anyway. I had to rent a car (from their company of course) and drive all the way to calgary for a 30 minute interview, just to get an email the next day that they "pursued other applicants". Now, I don't exactly have money to throw around these days, and the money I had to spend on a rental car and gas to get to Calgary could've been put to better use, so I'm pretty angry that they didn't just give me a good interview in Lethbridge so they would've known ahead of time that they didn't want to hire me.

So after a few tears of frustration, I thought about my backup plan to go back to school and how originally, I secretly didn't want the job so that I could go back to school. When I tried to make myself excited about school again, a little panic set in that I might not get accepted into my program. I had checked online earlier that morning to see if I had been accepted yet and there was still no update. So I prayed. I prayed that school would work out so that I wouldn't be left with no options. After that little prayer, I felt like I should check online again... and VOILA! I had been accepted into school. I have registered for classes, and while the thought of buying school supplies and doing homework again makes me a little nausious, I'm quite excited about the classes I'll be taking. I love learning.

I also thought about quitting my job at Top Pizza since I've been feeling more and more uncomfortable around some of the staff. There are a couple staff members in particular who don't seem to care about offending the people around them with their language, jokes, or habits. At first I thought I could be a good example for them, but there is only so much someone can put up with.... Luckily, these 2 staff members are leaving. One is moving to Calgary, and one got fired for stealing. Already, the atmosphere at work is a million times better. So I can keep my job and go to school, and hopefully I won't have to take out more student loans for next year.

K random story time. Today, this girl came in to apply for a job. I just have to wonder if she really ever thought she had a chance at being hired. Here's why:
#1) No resume. Kinda crucial...
#2) On her application under hobbies she put "hockey, rollerblading, and making out"
#3) For height and weight (yes... these applications are super old and should probably be updated) she put 135 kg and 185 m ....
#4) When asked if she had any children she said "no... but do pets count?"
#5) When asked what experience she has with computer programs or other operating systems she said "microsoft office, and phones". Wow. She can operate a phone.
#6) I don't think she spelled a single word correctly. No.. I'm not exaggerating.
#7) Her and her friends stayed to eat some pizza while she was filling out her resume, and they pulled out a laptop and decided to watch some episodes of the "Simpsons". When I asked her to turn it off because there are other people in the restaurant, they gave me attitude (and turned it up louder after I walked away).

Some people's kids.....


Shoot... I thought I was done with this blog but here's the rest.

This past weekend, my friends Brittany and Brandon got married! I was able to go to this one since they got married in Cardston. I bought a new outfit and looked pretty dang hot I must say! :) A few of my BYU-I friends who I haven't seen since December also came up for the wedding and it was SO GOOD to see them!! I spent most of my time with Josh and Kenny who were really the only other 2 single folks at the wedding. We had a blast together. They had quite the interesting road trip up. To make a long story short, they ran out of gas at the border and had to walk all over to find someone who would lend them a gas can. They found this drunk lady at a bar (who apparently looked like a cross between skeletor and a holocaust victim) who loaned them her gas can. She told them to meet her at a "church bar" in "Sunburst" on Saturday to return the gas can. Sounds like she has no idea what she's talking about right? WRONG! They actually found her in a city called "Sunburst" in Montana, at a church bar! They tell the story way better than I ever could...

Ok .. now I'm done.

My possible ''big-girl-job''!

SO!

In my last post, I mentioned the plan to go back to school. Well, that is technically still in the works however there has been a slight change in plans. While I was at home, I was looking through different websites for jobs in Lethbridge, just because mine sucks at the moment. I'm basically working part time and it's barely paying the bills. I saw this job with Enterprise rent-a-car. It's the management trainee program. I really had no idea what it was, but I saw that the only experience required was a 4-yr degree in SOMEthing.. which I have. So I applied.

Much to my surprise, they called me! Last Monday I got a call and we talked for a bit about the opportunity and it seems awesome. The first year salary is pretty great, and they tell me that most people get promoted after a year or so, and then the salary goes up. There's vacation time, sick days, health and dental benefits, weekends off, etc. So I had a phone interview. Yesterday I got a call about a second interview for next week! So if all goes well and I get offered a job, then I'll take it!

The main reason I wanted to go back to school was to get a big-girl-job like this one, and now I might not have to go even further into student debt to get it! It's pretty exciting! I just hope I like the job if I get it. If not, well school is always an option but I'm pretty excited about this chance. I'll keep you all updated for sure!

we were born for this

So I just got back to Lethbridge after a FABULOUS vacation at home :) Here are the highlights:

#1) Daniel came home from his mission!!!! It was SO good to see him and have the whole family together! There's just something special when the WHOLE family is all in the same place at the same time. Plus, he's the boy so without him, it's just a whole lot of female. It was nice to play with my siblings for a whole week. The best times were when we'd all get hyper and giggly and laugh about nothing!
"PINCH!"
"The eye says NO!"
"Is it as cute as when the cat does it?"
"Here comes David Copperfield, hopping down the bunny trail!"

#2) I spent about %75 of the vacation in my pyjamas playing games such as guitar hero, pictionary, and madgab. spectacular.

#3) I got to spend a day with Melisa in Pickering. We basically only drove the 3 hours to go to a specific chinese buffet restaurant. It was super tasty, and on the way back we stopped at this apple place with a giant fake apple outside. They also have these random goats/llamas that we got to feed. (side note - llamas are uuugly!)

#4) I had an epiphony (sp?). I'm going back to school to get a more useful degree. I've applied to University of Lethbridge to get a marketing degree. My roommates have informed me that since I already have a degree that as long as my generals transfer, it should only take me 2 years! My brother helped me decide on Marketing. He seems to think I'd really enjoy it and I think he's right! I mean, I'm so passionate about commercials... maybe I can finally get that job of being "the one" to decide which commercials can make it to air or not. I will change the world!

#5) I went to cancel my gym membership since it takes an hour and a half to get there on the bus here in Lethbridge, so making the bi-weekly payments were just a waste of money. I expected there to be a $99fee for cancelling early, but they WAIVED it for me :D That was a HUGE tender mercy since I'm pretty broke! Also, I got my gst cheque AND my visa moneyback reward too! So I was able to afford to get back home!


I think that's about it. Overall, it was a great week but it was definitely time to get back to work since I spent all my money :)

Top Pizza!

So can I just say how much I am actually enjoying my job?? I know, right?!?

I was a little worried at first... the other employees are a little rough around the edges (to be polite) and they kinda take their smoke breaks in the back room... which I'm pretty sure is illegal.. I've only seen my boss once since my interview so the older staff kind of takes it upon themselves to run the place..

Besides all that, it's actually a great job. The pay is decent, the staff cracks me up, and they actually like me, which apparently is a big deal because they usually hate the new people and complain non stop about them. The delivery driver asked Colleen (the self-proclaimed boss) how I was doing and she didn't have anything bad to say about me. (I'm not lazy... that's pretty much all it takes I guess) Oh, and we were voted "best pizza in lethbridge" this year! Again! This place has been in Lethbridge for 41 years!

I've even started to get comfortable there, and come out of my shell. For those who know me well, know that when I get out of my shell ... I'm OUT of my SHELL! So I've already been called "sassy" a couple of times :)

I did, however, get "caressed" at work the other day. I was running around the corner and ran right into one of the kitchen guys. I guess he wanted to make double sure I wouldn't fall over because he kept his hands around my waist for what felt like a lifetime and slid them across my stomach as he walked away.... *awkward*

When I have to work late, the delivery driver drives me home. I give him 5 bucks which is still WAY cheaper than a cab would be. Often he has this girl with him who I guess is friends with most of the staff as well. They're both sweet people. I've been worried that I've been a burden to him lately, needing rides 2 or 3 times a week and his response was, "Are you kidding? By driving you home, I have an excuse not to hang out till all hours of the night with the rest of the staff watching them drink and do drugs. Ever since we've been driving you home, good things have been happening in our lives. It's awesome!" Isn't that great?? We have some great religious conversations during those drives too. The other day we even talked a bit about temple marriages. They're both fairly acquainted with the church. I have lots of hope for them :)

Ok I've procrastinated sleeping long enough. Here is a picture of my place of employment! (Because I'm sweet like that..)

The dangers of YSA dances...

So I went to a dance last night. It was actually pretty decent. It was outside, the music was plenty loud, and the song selection was pretty fabulous. The after party was a birthday party for my roommate's 19 year old sister back at our place.

However I ended this evening feeling older than ever! Here's why:

#1) The songs I enjoyed the most were at least 10 years old. For example, Destiny's Child - Jumpin', Beastie Boys - Intergalactic, Will Smith - Gettin' Jiggy Wit' it, etc etc

#2) I knew ALL the words to these songs... and some kids had never heard them before.

#3) A boy asked me to dance. I could tell right away he was a bit younger than me... He asked if I was in school, and I said I was finished. I asked him if HE was in school. He said he had just graduated! So I asked him what he studied and he said "no, I just graduated high school. I'm going to U of L in the fall for a year and then I will go on my mission"...... precious....

#4) As the birthday party took place upstairs, I was in the basement with a few other of the "older" folks listening to records. Some of the kids came downstairs as part of a game and couldn't wait to get back upstairs away from the "old people". I think they were shocked that we would enjoy sitting around reminiscing about the days of cassette tapes while listening to records.

I am officially in my "late twenties". I have to admit... a shed a tear that day... but now it's starting to grow on me. Now if only I could look a touch older so I don't have to embarrass anymore 18 year old boys with my "wisdom"...

My Birthday!

So today is my 27th birthday! Not sure how I feel about that, but I'm starting to accept it. Last night I went out for dinner with some friends to celebrate! This was followed by birthday cake back at my place. Linda's sister Gene make it! She decorated it like a pizza! People know me well :)

"Someday everything's gonna fall right into place.."

Random blog.

This weekend ALL my roommates went out of town. I discovered I hate being totally alone for too long... Not sure if I could ever live by myself unless I had friends/family close by to stop over all the time.

Making $100 in tips can take me RIGHT out of the worst mood ever!

I've fallen in love with the Paramore album and I listen to it all the time lately. Which is weird because I downloaded it ages ago and originally thought all the songs sounded the same. Not sure what I was thinking!

When Faith has babies, I'm moving back to Ontario. That should give me about a year or more to stick it out here which I'm ok with.. I'm excited to have that excuse to settle in Ontario :) If I'm going to be single for a long time, I may as well be around family, right?

I still crave pizza and rootbeer ALL THE TIME!

I had the best religious discussion today with a couple people from work. It's nice to be appreciated for my morals instead of feeling on display like some kind of freak show.

Ok it's bed time.

Happiness is...

I figure when you go to update your facebook status, and it's about to be longer than a sentence, it's time for another blog post.

The new job is going pretty well! I've only worked 2 shifts and it's like I've been there for months. They never really "trained" me. In the past, I've spent up to 2 weeks just following someone around as "training" and this time, they threw me right into waitressing on the first day. This as been a blessing because I could really use the cash now, rather than waiting until they trust me to do what I've been doing for years on my own. The staff is.... well... not as classy as I'm used to, but they're nice and not at all intimidating! The boss is never there, the job is REALLY easy, and tonight I made $30/hr! which isn't bad considering it's this 50 yr old pizza place that nobody I talk to has ever heard of! I think I'm just a great waitress because the other waitresses complain that I always get the big tips. Just goes to show you how far a greeting and a smile can go!

On my way home from work, there were these 2 cute little families on the bus that knew each other. Each had a toddler and a newborn. It was so cute to watch. One of the toddlers looked JUST like my cousin Cameron which made me love him immediately. In fact, he kept pressing the "next stop" button which made the bus stop at every stop on the way home. Normally this would bug me, but the kid was just too cute for words and he kept smiling at me. Made my heart melt.

I felt like I was in a movie during that bus ride. I was listening to slower music which felt like a soundtrack to how I was feeling while watching those cute little families. Just made me appreciate that no matter how terrible the world can be, the good is always out there. As soon as I got off the bus, there was a big gust of wind that brought the amazing smell of lilacs with it. Brought a smile to my face :) Tender mercy.

I'm even starting to make a few good solid friends already which is nice! Luckily Linda is amazing so she attracts amazing people. Plus my roommates are quality. It's going well here! (I'm so glad I decided not to blog until I felt better about life!)

Ok I should stop. I've gotten into this terrible habit of staying up way to late and sleeping in way to late. Peace in the middle east!

Finally!!

Ok... So I know that I haven't updated this blog in awhile. The main reason is because my life has been so up in the air lately, that I didn't want to post a long whiney blog about why nothing seems to ever go my way. Deep down I knew that things would start to work out and I wanted to wait until then so that I wouldn't seem so ...... annoying! So here goes:

I've been in Lethbridge for almost 3 weeks now. My roommates are all really easy going and nice to be around. It's been really great living with Linda who I've known since girls camp days! She's so fun and supportive. I sleep on an inflatable bed which is surprisingly comfortable and doesn't bother me at all! I don't have a dresser or a desk or even a door for my bedroom. The laundry room is my closet which means my roommates are constantly coming in and out of my room. But surprisingly, none of that bothers me! I really enjoy this house, these people, and I feel like I'm starting to make some friends.

I went camping in Waterton on the long weekend. It was really fun! On Saturday, Linda, Nolan, Logan and I went to Cardston first to do a session in the temple. It was great! Just what I needed. It had been awhile since I'd been to the temple so it was really good for me. Then we went to Waterton and enjoyed the weather. Did this little mini-hike and played by some water. We went and got some ice cream at this really tasty little place and basically just hung out with a big group of ppl who were also from Lethbridge. We went back that night and went to church in our own wards on Sunday. That evening, Linda, Maureen, and I went back to Waterton and met up with some other people and camped for the night. We met up with that same large group of people from Saturday and played Fugitive that night. I hadn't been camping in years. I remembered how much I hate sleeping on the ground! At least I was able to stay warm which is a miracle. It was nice to be able to go that weekend.

The job search should be a blog all on its own! I first went to Denny's since I've worked at a Denny's before. I even got hired on my 4th day here! However, as soon as I hung up the phone, I just felt sick to my stomach. I really didn't feel right about working there. I have no idea why... I loved Denny's before. This one wasn't right next door though, and the bosses were pretty intimidating. So I turned it down and kept looking.

About a week later, I was hired at this fancy pants bistro downtown. I was a little hesitant since at first he said he didn't need anybody else, but after talking to him for 10 minutes, he decided to hire me. It started out alright, even though the entire staff was pretty snobby... I worked 3 shifts and was told to call him the following week to get my schedule. When I did, he told me he didn't think the weekend would be very busy so he'd call me if anything came up. Surprise surprise... no phone call. Blessing in disguise really because I hated being there. I could feel my self esteem being sucked right out of me. I just don't have the personality for a "small food/big prices" kind of place. So I kept looking.

I found a few ads in the paper for places who were actually hiring. One was a catering company who needed servers and I thought that would be really fun. Another was the cheesecake cafe... and I love cheesecake! However, after many more resumes, still no phone calls. Meanwhile, I was quickly starting to run out of money. I checked the paper online again to see if there were any new ads, and I saw this one for a full time waitress at "Top Pizza and Spaghetti House". It's the oldest pizza place in Lethbridge and the second oldest restaurant in Lethbridge. And come on.... I KNOW pizza!

So I applied on Friday, and got a call on Tuesday for an interview on Wednesday. This place is so cute! Very laid back, and I guess they get lots of regular customers which I love. Word on the street, is they are often very busy as well, which means I could get plenty of hours. My interview went so well! We just chatted about how he has a new 7 week old baby boy (their first child) and how his wife is mormon but he believes in what he believes. He says he's worked for too many a-holes in his life, so he's not that guy. He says he doesn't expect this place to be my LIFE, but that it'll be my job so that I can have a life, which means he's good about giving time off when needed. He loves that I'll never call in sick hungover and that I've worked as a server, and in the kitchen before. So this all seems a little too good to be true! He said he'd call yesterday afternoon after all his interviews and he didn't...... so I got worried like I always do.. whined like I always do... freaked out like I always do... and went to bed feeling worthless. 27 (almost) year old with no job, no husband, no kids, and not a penny to my name.

Woke up this morning to a phone call and a job offer! The pay is rediculously good for waitressing. I get paid more than I got paid working in the kitchen at pizza hut, and I'll still get tips on top of that! It's not too far from where I live. I only have to take one bus to get there! It's open later than the last bus so I may have to take a cab more often than I'd like, but if I get plenty of hours, I should be able to afford a cheap car relatively soon-ish.

I feel like I was lead to this job. It's strange the steps I had to take to find it. Plus I feel like maybe I can be a good example to my boss and maybe help him open his eyes to the church. Now that he has a new baby son, maybe he'll be more open to the doctrine that the church has to offer. I would love to be able to help them become an eternal family.

Ok... that's all for now.. Hopefully I'll have more good stuff to post again sooner rather than later!

Tagged...

I've been tagged. The instructions are to post the 6th picture from the 6th folder on your computer. This is mine.

The funny thing.... My picture is pretty close to my sister Megan's picture. This is ALSO at Faith's wedding.. and I'm also helping her put on her dress... what a fatty.. haha JOKES!

K.... now I'll tag... Amelia, Christy, and Alyssa! Since those are the only other people that I know of who also stalk my blog :)

3 weeks!

Only 3 more weeks until I leave for Alberta! I can't even explain the excitement I'm feeling! I'm not sure if I've ever been THIS sure that I'm going to be where I'm supposed to be! I've always been blessed throughout my life with feelings of confirmation if I'm doing what I'm supposed to be doing... but never like this! I feel like my insides could jump out of my throat at any minute! It's quite the feeling!

I gave a talk in church a couple of weeks ago... talk about opposition! Somebody did NOT want me to give this talk... I didn't think it was very important.. it was just about finding guidance through the scriptures and I never really felt like I ever found much guidance through the scriptures. Usually it was through my own prayers or general conference talks. I had no idea what I would even talk about. Also, of course the week before was FULL of work, work, and more work. Saturday night I came home from work in tears because I hadn't had a chance ALL week to work on it. 30 mins and 4 conference talks later, I was done. Not excited about it, but it was done. Sunday morning I arrive at church only to have forgotten it at home. So I sped home as fast as possible and got back to church without a second to spare. I think I was even out of breath as I got up to the podium. After sacrament meeting, I received a few comments that they loved my talk and were even touched by specific things I said. It made me feel good to know that I was able to say things that some people needed to hear. Also, about half way through my talk, I said something out of the blue, that was something that I MYSELF needed to hear... it was a scripture that said something about how doing the right things in life will guide you to be happy or something. SO little did I know, I HAVE been receiving guidance through the scriptures my whole life! It was pretty neat. Plus the whole time I was speaking, I was feeling amazing feelings of confirmation that the guidance I received about going to Lethbridge was definitely from God and that He wants me to be there right NOW.

After church, one of my home teachers approached me and said that after having watched me stand up there and give a great talk with such confidence, poise, and faith, that he had to come home teach me that night. He said he had something he needed to tell me, and that home teaching was the way to do it. So they came by that night, and we all small talked for a few minutes and then he said (paraphrasing of course) "I've been feeling like I need to say this to you for some time now, I just never knew when or how. Someday, somebody is going to see you for who you are. He's going to see your integrity, faith, confidence, beauty, and it is going to take his breath away. He will wonder how you've gone this long without being taken by somebody else. I know this because that is what happened when I found my wife. And it's going to happen for you soon. I know this. " Now I'm not sure if he has the "right" I guess to receive revelations like that for me as my home teacher, but it certainly made me feel really good about myself and it gave me that little boost of faith I've really been needing lately. I figure my Heavenly Father knows me, and knows my home teachers, and knows exactly what I need to hear so why wouldn't He inspire them to say it to me?

Things are good ... and they're about to get even better :) Not necessarily easier, but I feel like I'm going to experience some joy that I'm not even aware exists right now. Maybe marriage, maybe kids, maybe not. But in some way for sure...

The Climb

So I've discovered that I'm opposite of my sister Megan in one way (at least). When I listen to music, I listen to the lyrics first. I've actually really enjoyed a song just for the words, even if the sound of it isn't so appealing.

For example: I HATE MILEY CYRUS!! I really don't like the sound of her voice much at ALL. However, I LOVE the lyrics to one of her newer songs. Therefore I will allow the sound of Miley's voice to enter my ears.... for at least the next while..

The Climb

I can almost see it.
That dream I'm dreaming but
there's a voice inside my head saying
You'll never reach it.
Every step I'm taking,
every move I make feels
lost with no direction.
My faith is shaking but I
got to keep trying,
got to keep my head held high.

There's always going to be another mountain.
I'm always going to want to make it move.
Always going to be an uphill battle.
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose.
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side,
It's the climb.

The struggles I'm facing,
the chances I'm taking,
sometimes they knock me down. But
no I'm not breaking.
I may I know it,
but these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most.
Just got to keep going,
and I,
I got to be strong.
Just keep pushing on.


It's all about the climb.

I wish I was more interesting

It's definitely about that time that I move away and find some adventures... The only things that happen to me that I find amusing probably would confuse most people!

Boston Pizza called today to offer me a job... great timing guys!

I've been stressing for the last month about having to give my notice to Santa Fe when I finally move back to Alberta... and the idea of stressing about it for another month is pretty much unbearable so I think I'm going to do it this week... I'll tell them that I've decided to move in with a friend to help her cover rent because her roommates left last minute. (It's kind of a lie..... but I really don't like making people angry... I figure that little lie will soften the blow) Also I'll say something along the lines of "I thought it was only fair to tell you now in case you want to hire someone new sooner rather than later" I'll offer to continue to work till I leave but we'll see if that's even what they want. I secretly hope they'll want me just to quit now... not sure why...

Oh, by the way...people don't like it when you throw handfuls of Doritos at them from a moving car. The End.

never say never

So I did it.... I went back to pizza hut after a year and a half long absence. I vowed that the last time I left would be the last time! I had no more reasons to go back since I was graduating. However I ended up with a job that kinda screws me over when it comes to hours, so I had no choice but to take some extra hours at the good ol' hut. I'm actually really grateful that Peter gave me the hours when he doesn't *really* need me.. I guess he likes me after all!

Of course the day after I got this second job, my boss Tom at Santa Fe informed me that 2 waitresses were quitting and I could have their hours... but I counted it all and even with their hours, the MOST hours I could get in a week would be 20-25 and that just wouldn't cut it... And next week he only gave me 2 shifts. 6 hrs MAX.... so thank goodness for pizza hut. (never thought I'd say that..)

It's been fun being back there actually. LOTS of stuff changed while I was gone so there's actually lots to learn which is keeping the level of monotony WAY down. Plus, all the staff is new so I feel like I'm working at a different pizza hut. It's kind of fun. But if this one kid tries to prove to me how he's better than me one more time, I'm gonna hurt him... nobody will ever be better than me at pizza hut! haha... should I even be bragging about that?

I had my measurements taken at the gym after having been there for a month. I didn't lose any weight which is a little disheartening, but my body fat went down %2 which means I must be doing something right. I also lost a half inch off my chest, a whole inch off my waist and another half inch off my hips. My biceps grew a half inch! I'm pretty buff these days...

I keep having dreams about big violent shootings. In the first dream, I was in this building with some friends and we were trying to escape these shooters who were running around and shooting everyone. I almost got shot in that one. A bullet grazed my nose. Random. In the second dream, it was kind of like I was watching a movie. This girl was trying to escape a big group of men who were trying to kidnap her or something. She had a gun and was just shooting them all. This dream was particularly violent because I actually saw people getting shot at point blank to the head. These aren't the first dreams I've had about shootings....SO I looked all this up on dreammoods.com and it says: "To see a shooting in your dream, indicates that you have a set goal and know what you are aiming for in life. Your plans are right on target!" This actually kind of makes sense to me. I have plans for the near future and I'm really excited about them. They're not super exciting... I'm only moving to Lethbridge and don't really know what I'll do once I get there, but I'm amazed at how much peace I actually feel these days! Just a few short weeks ago I was about as cranky, angry, sad, frustrated, and anxious as I've ever been in my whole life. Since I made the decision to move to Lethbridge, I just feel calm! My nightly prayers are a LOT less whiney and I'm happy! Really excited to see what Lethbridge life will bring. Of course I still secretly hope that maybe this is where I'll finally find my husband and start my family (and I sort of feel like that might happen... even though I've felt it before... but I think I always was forcing myself to feel that because it's what I wanted.. but I suppose that could still be true now..) but I *really* (this time I mean it) have accepted the fact that it'll happen in the Lord's time. Now I pray that until the Lord sees fit that I have my own family, He will help me find things to do that will help me find joy and fulfillment in life so that I don't sit around basing my self-worth on the presence of a man. I'm just really excited to be happy!

Lonely Road

In life there may be times
when it gets hard to walk the walk.
It's easier to take the path
that most have traveled on.
But then again sometimes to do what's right
you must walk alone.

And Lord, it's a lonely road
when this world burns down deep in your soul.
You will find there's peace left in mind.
You will find there's peace to find,
peace to find.

Some people are unkind
to those who see things different.
We've all felt pain in ways
it hurts to even bring it up.
But that don't mean that we
should take this motion lying down.
I'll stand and fight until the day
they put me in the ground.

And Lord, it's a lonely road
when this world burns down deep in your soul.
You will find there's peace left in mind.
You will find there's peace to find,
peace to find.

Here goes nothing..

SO..... I don't know how to make my blog look any more interesting than this.. so here it is.

I'm not very good at writing my thoughts or even what's going on in my life but I'll try.

Outsiders looking at my life probably think that I'm a "failure" so far... I don't have a big important career and I don't have children. Friends from high school are probably thinking "she was so smart.... what happened?" Well, I also sometimes wish I had a big career or children, or was at least doing something a little more worth while. However, I've actually realized that my life right now makes sense to me. I can see what I'm doing and why, and although I'm not where I want to be forever, I understand why I'm here right now. So I'm good.

I'm being trained. I work with the Primary kids at church and although it was NOT what I wanted to do, I'm loving it and learning every week. The Lord teaches me things every Sunday that I need to know for the future. I have a strong feeling that the life I've always wanted is not too far off in the distance. I can say that because I'm the one in my head and nobody else is.

I love waitressing. Is that bad? I hope not because I love it. I love working in restaurants. I love meeting new people and talking to them on a regular basis. I love it. I get stressed and complain about it, but I really do love it. Just because you don't need a degree to do it, doesn't mean it can't be a fulfilling "career". I have that "piece of paper" and maybe I'll actually use it sometime in my life, but for now I'm ok with it simply being in a frame on my wall.

Well I should go... I have a date with The Bachelor :)